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What if anxiety can bring you closer to Jesus? Jordan spent a whole year praying his anxiety away until he discovered something deeper – a stronger relationship with Jesus.  Maybe you can relate to his story:

“I think I’m going to die.”

That’s exactly what I thought to myself numerous sleepless nights last year.  I would try to fall asleep, only to be woken up in terror for no particular reason.  My chest was tight.  I felt I was choking, and I couldn’t breathe at times.  The cycle would repeat, and eventually I resigned myself to sleep on the couch so I’d stop waking up my wife.

One day, I went to a doctor and explained my symptoms – the chest pain, the trouble falling asleep, and the panic attacks. After a couple of tests over a few visits, he diagnosed me with anxiety.  Can I be honest? It made me feel like a failure as a Christian. Hadn’t I been praying against this the right way? I’m not suppose to deal with this, I would think to myself, I’m supposed to have peace and not worry – that’s what Jesus said to do!

After following the doctor’s instructions and starting to take a small dose of medication, I continued praying for anxiety to just go away.  I didn’t want to have to deal with it anymore.

In 2 Corinthians 12, in the NIV translation, Paul describes his “thorn in the flesh.” While we never know for sure what Paul’s “thorn” was, anxiety can certainly feel like one for a lot of people, including me.  Paul said that he pleaded with the Lord three times to take it away, but instead, Jesus told him, my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.

The grace of Jesus is sufficient, no matter the circumstances.  As I began praying for healing, I began to draw closer to Jesus.  Like Paul, God hasn’t taken away my thorn.  However, I’ve found myself more passionate about reading His Word, and I’ve prayed more than I ever have before.

i thought I what I needed was healing for my anxiety.  In reality, I needed more of Jesus.  Now, I’m not saying if I had been closer to Jesus that I would have had anxiety.  I’m also not going to stop praying for anxiety to leave.  I keep praying to be delivered from this thorn just like Paul did.

But something even better is happening to me than being instantly healed from anxiety:  I’m developing a deeper understanding of God and a richer relationship with Him.

Instead of just praying for peace, I found myself drawing closer to the Prince of Peace.  When I began to worry about my future, I reminded myself that He is the Alpha and the Omega – the beginning and the end, the first and the last.

I prayed for my anxiety to go away, but I found something much better: the overwhelming, loving presence of Jesus in my life – even in the midst of anxiety.



Philippians 4:6-7 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.  And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
2 Corinthians 12:7-9 And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffet me, lest I should be exalted above measure.
8For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.
9And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

Romans 15:13 Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.

Psalm 4:8 I will both lay me down in peace, and sleep: for thou, Lord, only makest me dwell in safety.

Revelation 22:13 I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end, the first and the last.


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